Ch. 134 - SerenityFreshest breezeSwipes the tips of my hairAcross my shoulder

  And carriesSweetest scents of flower and treeUnknown, yet familiar

  My heartKnows the cradle of lifeEven as the world dies.

  – Tinea's first steps into the peace of Baie-Comeau

  ***

  There was a silent hush, the unbroken gentle sway of intimate peace, as we entered the copse. Speckled sunlight filtered through the leaves above us, tinged an unfamiliar green that nonetheless whispered of health and uncomplicated ease.

  I came to a stop as I lifted my gaze and found myself falling in love with what I could only describe as paradise. Leah, still holding my hand, followed suit.

  She looked down at me and squeezed my fingers when I refocused on her, blinking and occupied with all this natural…newness. Freshness. It was…it was a drug. It reminded me a little of when I'd first id eyes on the ocean twenty years ago, where the raw presence of endless waters and moving waves had stunned me into speechlessness. One of many moments that would eventually turn mercenary me into a human, bit by bit.

  Leah smiled at me and stroked my cheekbone with her free hand.

  "It's a beautiful pce, isn't it?" she said.

  I just nodded mutely, still working through the magic of this cradle of life, hidden away beyond the reach of city or industry. It…wasn't made for humans, I felt, like it was meant to be beyond the reach of humans.

  My eyes widened as that thought circled through my mind. But not for samurai, maybe.

  I looked around again, but I couldn't see much of the wider area past the flowering trees.

  "What's up, Tinea?" Leah asked.

  I shook my head. "Just an idea."

  Don't know the disposition of this samurai yet, I sent her via text, but I thought this might be an excellent location for your orphanage, yeah?

  Leah's brows rose and she pursed her lips. Looking around, she evaluated the area and nodded, then shrugged.

  Maybe, she replied, it's kinda far from the city, though.

  Right. I'd forgotten that she actually wanders between orphanages again. Samurai gear would let her travel quickly, but…

  "Oh!"

  "Hmm?"

  Teleportation might be an option! I transmitted, and Tynea added her own two cents to the conversation.

  "Gates might be more appropriate for repeated travel. You'll also need several more tokens and two or three hundred thousand points. At minimum. And only because you're looking to cover just a few hundred kilometers between two stationary positions."

  "Huh. Is it that expensive, compared to the dimensional shunting for my gear?"

  "Yes, it's Css III technology. Transfer of personnel adds requirements to the process that are entirely incomparable in their complexity. The cost of tucking away your wings is already several orders of magnitude higher than doing the same for technological component parts, and you're far more durable than a child. They can't heal genetic damage as fast as they pick it up, for example."

  "I…see." I suddenly wasn't so sure about stuffing my wings through backpack portals.

  Leah tugged me forward again, further into the copse, saying, "It sounds like building an entire base is cheaper than that, Tinea. Topic for the future?"

  "Okay." My smile widened when she bent down to press a soft kiss against my lips. I also realized, less distracted by all the new scents and fvors wafting through the air, that we might need another bath. After we'd have had a good look around and figured out where we could be private.

  That was a change that hit me out of nowhere—suddenly I had to think about strangers again.

  I was going to meet other people as a woman for the first time.

  Oh god!

  I felt dislocated. Like something had just yanked the floor out beneath my feet. Excited, scared, jittery, nervous heat crept from my chest up my throat and into my cheeks.

  It was going to be very different from meeting Leah. I'd found her in circumstances beyond the norm, and both our behaviors had been subject to needs that cut right past any…social mores. We'd connected deeply before we'd even had time to do the usual dance of getting to know each other.

  My hands started quivering from my flip-flopping emotions. I moved over and pressed my face against the back of Leah's shoulder, hiding from the world. She released my hand to turn towards me, hugged me, and wrapped her fingers around the base of my tail. It grounded me, like a metal rod grounded lightning.

  Part of me wanted to kick myself for hiding again from the specter of strange people's eyes, but another part understood that I was on a journey. That I wouldn't go from near complete isotion to social butterfly in one step.

  That this particur step, in some ways my first one into the world as a woman, was a particurly difficult one. Fraught with old angst and worry.

  Leah nuzzled the top of my head and I breathed in her scent. It calmed me as I stroked my thumb across the nail of my ring finger, the one with the wavy golden path above the bck abyss, and the bright light at the end.

  One step at a time. And if I slip, that's okay. I'll just try again. Yeah.

  I took one st big breath and let myself enjoy the warm softness of Leah's hug before stepping backwards. When I lifted my eyes to meet hers, I found steadfast reassurance there, and patient love.

  True to sort-of-puberty, my emotions did yet another flip, and I was just stuffed with happiness at the closeness and support she offered me. Tears spilled down my cheeks and Leah caught them with her thumbs and wiped them away, smiling with just a hint of humor and ughter riding the bow of her lips.

  Not even an ounce of what-do-I-do in her expression. She really must be experienced with taking care of teenage girls, huh? Probably seen a hundred thousand mood swings over the years.

  I took her hands and folded them in front of my chest, rose up on my tippy-toes and gave her a chaste, lingering kiss. I put all the gratitude I could into it.

  "I love you, Leah," I said.

  The faint blush that tinged her ears tickled me in all the impish spots, but above all, the brilliant smile she gave me turned my heart into gooey taffy.

  "Love you too, Tinea, you sappy mess, you."

  Giggling, I hid my face in the crook of her neck before I replied, "No, really. I love you. And also, thank you. For letting me be me. I hope I'm not being annoying."

  She sighed softly and rocked us left and right slowly. It was endearing. Motherly in a way. Fed a thirst in me that I'd been carrying my entire life; since I'd spied the girls of our cohort being hugged and cared for by their…our mothers.

  Yeah. Not like I don't already know I need therapy.

  "Don't worry about it, Tinea."

  "Hmm?" I asked, thoughts jumping between the present and the past.

  "You've expined your transformation and the hormones. It's fine. It'll st a while, and then it'll be over. Until then," Leah chuckled, "well, a discombobuted Tinea is a very adorable thing to witness."

  Aww. I'd have to ask Tynea to check my DNA if I wasn't turning into a koa, considering how huggy and squeezy I was tely.

  "Besides, Tinea, you might be experiencing puberty, or at least some elements of it, but you're still not as…aggravatingly illogical as my younger girls can sometimes be. There's still a lot of grown adult in you."

  "Oh?" I inquired, leaning back to meet her eyes. I was very curious about that part of childhood that I'd had zero contact with.

  "M-hm," she said, "you wouldn't believe the things a pubescent, insecure, inexperienced mind comes up with to be worried about. Especially with the periods."

  I froze. Periods. I'd completely forgotten about those. Even after Tynea had asked me if I wanted to be able to have babies. I hadn't prepared anything, either.

  Oh, shit. Wait, wait. Uh, what was the math again? How many weeks? Days? Fuck!

  My face must've clued her in, because Leah giggled and scritched my tail until I wanted to purr.

  ***

  Leah was chortling on the inside, and so, so very charmed.

  She held her Tinea in her arms, and the complete abandon with which the reborn woman's brain hared off after each new idea and impression was beyond cute. It was like she was gifting Leah with a girl's journey of self-discovery all over again.

  And unlike the ones Leah usually cared for, Tinea seemed to have no compunctions about privacy, distance, and personal space around Leah. None of the usual pushing and rejecting that came with puberty and the development of an identity. Her openness was something to protect and cherish, and Leah intended to do so with all her heart. Luckily, adult Tinea wasn't nearly as impressionable as those girls.

  Just, perhaps, in need of some understanding and care.

  Leah did wonder if providing a supportive environment would have a healing effect on Tinea's psyche, a chance to repce some of the twisted, formative experiences she'd survived as Aden.

  ***

  "Don't worry, Tinea, you've still got several weeks. And we're samurai. There's some extremely useful and very cheap stuff we can buy for sanitary purposes. Doesn't even require a catalog unlock."

  "Oh, good," I replied, somewhat wanly. Tynea would probably be able to tell me when during the chrysalis my body had begun that cycle. That'd be a few days more or less. I forced myself to empty my lungs and rex my shoulders. No panic was necessary.

  And, really? It was a part of being a woman…at least as I wished to experience it. Nature's way of hazing us. To share that knowing gnce with other women that said, Yup, been there, done that.

  It was me, this time, who grabbed Leah's hand and tugged her forward, past the st trees.

  We emerged into a beautiful gde, where twelve particurly tall, slender trees provided a sunlight-dappled shade for a circle of twelve…gravestones? It was a bit difficult to tell if they were gravestones or not. They had the air of small memorials, rather than tombs.

  "Ah…" Leah went.

  I looked at her questioningly.

  "This is the kind of thing you have for people who died, but whose ashes you don't have to inter." Old pain marred her face, then she sighed as she let it go again. "I made one for Lily."

  I leaned over and threw an arm around her waist, gd to provide companionship in turn. I didn't know what it was like to lose a sibling, or any family member really. But I did know what pain felt like.

  With Leah's words in mind, I looked around the…sanctuary again. It felt like a temple to treasured memories, a shrine. There was a life-size statue in the middle, of a woman standing peaceful vigil, long scythe banced in her hands.

  The statue was incredibly detailed, made of metals and other materials that had a kind of timeless quality to them. She wore an ankle-length dress that bared her shoulders, but had a wide, deep cowl. A wide belt, a Japanese obi, secured it around her waist, and from it, four long half-moon bdes hung. If she twirled, they would swing out and slice anything within reach.

  The scythe was clearly a samurai's weapon, shaped less like a farming implement and more like a fighting tool. Tech was worked into its handle and bde in curling, kind of mystical patterns.

  I wondered if the gear was real, or if it was a replica? Mementos to honor a fallen samurai?

  The statue stood on a low pedestal, one I could sense weak electromagnetic emanations from. A…charging station, perhaps?

  If the statue is samurai-made, I pondered, then it might also be a drone. A guard dog left behind, maybe, while the samurai themselves is elsewhere? That would expin a ck of reaction to our arrival beyond the initial scan—and perhaps, why the vilge appeared empty.

  Interestingly, I sensed nothing from the statue itself, so I couldn't be sure if it was a functional drone, or a replica of what had once been. It just stood there, a woman completely silent and still, head down, face shadowed and eyes closed, as if she was meditating. She had her hands csped one over the other, and the scythe held loosely, hanging horizontally in front of her pelvis. She wore simple shoes with very small heels. Ankles together, prim in a rexed, earthy sort of way.

  All in all, I saw the statue of a woman who was not at all battle-ready, but rather radiated an aura of poised serenity. An expectation of sanctuary.

  Then she opened her eyes.

  ***

  This is the Dervish css from Guild Wars 1, and this is roughly the stance Dolores, also known as Dervish, assumes on her plinth.

  Imagine that one of her hands curls around the other, the scythe is less barbs and more decorative, mystical tech integrated in wood, and her face is properly rexed, with closed eyes.

  The dress is very close to what I'm picturing, except the belt is much wider and prominent, much like a Japanese obi, with four semi-circur bdes hanging from it all the way down to the hem of the skirt. They may or may not be advanced samurai tech bdes.

  I have no rights to the image.

  Eleeyah