Chapter 4: Dot’s documentary session

  “In a world of darkness, a small white dot is resting near another green, bigger dot.unbeknownst to it, that place is the hunting spot of a red dot that earned the title of little red. "

  "Little Red may have the size of a french fry, but compared to the white dot, he was two times its girth. “

  “Little Red lay still, not far from the big green dot. Even when the white dot circled around the big green and got near it, it didn't dare to move. It was like a bow in tension, ready to unleash the arrow at any moment. Only when the white dot finally settled and rested, the little red finally decided to move.”

  “Like a flash of light, it projected itself to the white one. The latter had no time to react at all and quickly forfeited its right to live.”

  “In the void, once again, a dot disappeared forever, yet no one cared. The little red tyrant triumphs again in the struggle of the dots' life.“

  “And that concludes today’s dot’s documentary session. If you want to know more about little red daily life, don’t forget to check tomorrow in a few hours or whenever I want it. Thanks.”

  Have you ever heard of the saying “boredom is the mother of creativity”? I haven’t. In fact, I don’t even know if such a quote exists, but it sounds cool, and I can relate to it, so I don’t care whether it is a famous quote or just the product of my brain.

  Anyway, what I want to say is that even though I was unable to move, I managed to get a full schedule to spend my days. I got bored with complaining, so instead I spent those hours making scripts for my animated shows. I stopped calling them “hallucination” when I discovered that some of the dotes reacted to them. Or maybe I have gone so mad that I can’t differentiate the real from the illusion. In both cases, I can’t do a thing about it, so I just didn’t bother to overthink.

  As for how I can explain how I can make them, I have no idea, butt I am pretty sure I died, yet here I am talking to an imaginary public. I compared to that, suddenly gaining the ability to hallucinate was not that strange, and after a few weeks you can get used to pretty much anything.

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  Plus, I still have some creepy or depressing hallucinations from time to time, and they felt very different compared to my creation. The hallucinations were like a third-rate movie with very bad CGI. Still interesting, but you are always disappointed in them. It was terrifying the first few times, but after a few weeks, you can get bored with it.

  After making the script, I have to design it and do all the choreography and all other stuff. I am basically doing the work of an entire studio by myself. Not to mention, those light shows are tiring, so I can spend hours making barely any progress, sometimes spending days preparing for a three-minute show. The only saving grace is that I am still unable to incorporate sounds in it.

  All of that is fun, but somewhere, between the hallucinations, the useless thoughts and my work as a self-sustaining animation studio, I still have a lot of time to waste, so I spend that time observing those dots that appeared a few weeks ago. Yeah, times pass very fast when you have something to do.

  Those dots were very few at the beginning. I didn't even notice them until they became more abundant. At first, I associate them with another one of my dementias. At this point, one or one less doesn’t matter, right, I already managed to convince myself that I am dead, paralyzed in an unknown place, talking to myself, composing a light show, looking at hallucinations as if they were some kind of movie so actually seeing dots moving around were the least of my worries.

  My fascination for those dots came from many aspects, like the fact that no matter how you look at them or how many of them there are, they are all completely unique. How can I differentiate the dots, you asked? Well, they just felt different.

  To tell you the truth, calling them dots is completely wrong; they are too big to be qualified as such when you really look. Yet when you don’t specifically peer into them, they are no different from a little dot in a sea of dots.

  Isn’t that fascinating enough? No? Don’t worry, they also have other fascinating things, like their behaviors. You see, some of them are static, and some others are more active; some dots sharing a few similar characteristics would act similarly or differently, and not randomly but most of the time with a precise, almost like living beings; some even have developed animal-like characteristics like predation.

  Sadly, they do not dare to go too close to me. At least most of them don't but the few courageous ones ran away the moment I started the light show. That is when I started to believe that they may actually be real. They were acting too naturally to be fake. Since then, I spend hours every day observing them.

  Little Red is one of my favorites; he works very hard every day to relieve my boredom. Due to my inability to move, interacting with them is actually limited to me terrorizing them with my imagery, but that is already a big relief compared to being left alone in this place.

  Today was a good day. I did everything in my planning and made a lot of progress, but what makes it even better is that today, some new dots finally worked out the courage to fly toward me.