Rebecca Pov

  It was Boxing Day, I felt like absolute shit, but I initially thought that it was because of the amount of food I ate the day before, (because ya know, Christmas Day and we eat an amount of food that we don't normally eat here, ya know), and it was quite plausible too, but then I felt like I was going to puke my guts up, which wasn't the type of 'feeling like shit' that I was feeling.

  So I ran up the fucking stairs like my life fucking depended on it, (in which it did, and I'm going to point out to ye that it's actually pretty impressive that I ran up the stairs considering that our stairs are narrow and steep), and I barely made it to the loo before I fucking puked my guts up.

  Levi checked up on me about 5 minutes later, well maybe it was 5 minutes, who fucking knows though, I'm awful at guesstimating time on a good day, plus we had a very active toddler, so ya know, responsibilities, (though to be fair Jordan was actually pretty chill for a toddler, a menace for getting into things, but for a toddler that wasn't all that weird).

  "You feeling alright babe?"

  "No"

  "You sick?"

  "I don't think so, I'm not like clammy or anything"

  "Ok, uh, could you be, uh, pregnant?"

  If this was a cartoon, there would've been a giant arse lightbulb over my head, (like those old school cartoons did), as my cycle wasn't what we'd call regular, (so that was why it wasn't an indicator for me, ya know), it all kind of clicked together when Levi said that to me.

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  "You what, I could be, Babe can you see if there's still a test in the cupboard?"

  "Do you buy tests for just in cases?"

  "No, those things have a use by date, I've had a couple of what I thought were 'oh shit' moments"

  "Where was I?- when was the last time you thought you had a 'oh shit' moment?"

  I could tell that Levi was trying hard not to yell, I wasn't sure why that was at the time, because to me it wasn't a positive test, so no need to worry him about me panicking about a baby when there wasn't a baby, (I can now see that it was about the lack of communication about my emotional distress and all that squishy stuff... yay).

  "A couple weeks before Jordan's birthday, you were asleep, I didn't want to wake you up-"

  "Why not?"

  "You need sleep, not many people can survive with my lack of sleep-"

  "What would've happened if you were pregnant when you took the test before?"

  I didn't really think about if the test was actually positive, because I thought of it as soothing a panic rather than finding out if I was actually pregnant or not, (which I admit wasn't necessarily my smartest move, but it's unfortunately true), and I actually said that to Levi, (there was no point lying to him, he knows all my tells).

  "I honestly didn't think that far ahead Babe, I just needed to soothe my own panic of not knowing, Li there's no point waking you up for that"

  "My sleep's not more important than you Rebecca, for better or for worse-"

  "Even if it always turns out to be a false alarm?"

  It felt so quiet that I wasn't even sure that I said it out loud at first, but Levi must've heard it, as his face kind of softened, but I'm still not sure if that has made me feel worse about this over the years or not, (not that it was intentional on Levi's part, because it wasn't, but I had a lot of time to mull over this over the years).

  "Yeah babe, even if it's always a false alarm"

  "Ok"

  So I took the pregnancy test, mostly for my peace of mind here, but there was also like a small part of me that kind of already knew that I was pregnant, (no I don't know how that small part of me knew, as I don't really know all the ins and outs of my brain), I will spare you the gorey details though, (as we all know how to take a pregnancy test here).

  Anyway I took a look at the pregnancy test once it was finished marinating, (as you do), and obviously it was positive, (like I had already confirmed to ye, but ya know, proper conformation and all that jazz), so I then obviously told Levi, (he was outside the door to give me privacy but I don't know why, he had seen me naked multiple times at this point).

  "Li"

  "(Opens door), Yeah Babe"

  "It's positive"

  "We're having a baby?"

  "We're having a baby"